Monday, March 30, 2009
Windy Day
Yesterday the wind blew so hard I thought I would end up in Kansas with Dorthy. We didn't get any snow like ther est of the state, but it sure did blow. It was getting quite scary there for a while. I was working on the computer and the un-thinkable happened......the power went off. Now, I really get worried when my computer is on when the power goes off. Not just at my house but also at the school. I know my old computer in my room doesn't come up very well on any given day, so it is left on most of the time. I also follow the advice of our tech and leave my own computer on. So I was double/triple worried about computers. The power was off for about one hour. I thought I would spend the night without my comptuer so I didn't turn it on until morning. When I did,......you are right, it wouldn't load up correctly. All I can get is the desktop picture, no icons or anything! At school the server was down, but that problem was solved as soon as someone who knew what to do fixed it up right. But at home....I don't know what to do. I turned the computer off and back on a few times, but since I am not able to turn it off correctly, it still isn't turning on correctly. No icons or programs are loading on. No start button, no program button, nothing but the pretty flower on the desktop. I am kind of upset. So upset that I left my purse, phone, everything I need for the day at home before I came to school. My day was ruined before it even got started! Then it went downhill after that. I think I will go home to bed.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Green
I love the color green, so I really like the background I choose for March. I'm not sure I will change it right away.
I have loved green forever. When my friends and I used to get together and play games like Sorry, I always chose green. My friends have even mentioned how they remember I insisted I was green. No one else could have my color! Even my wedding colors were just green, but Mom talked me into having a little white to help out. Green, green, green. But it has to be the right shades and values of green. Not really dark, not dull green, but pretty green...like green glitter, or new leaves. Is it because my birthstone is Emerald green? I don't know, why but I love green. Maybe that is why I hate to go shopping, I hate to give up the "green" stuff. I don't obsess about recycling so I'm not "that green." But I love green.
Just thought I would write about that!
I have loved green forever. When my friends and I used to get together and play games like Sorry, I always chose green. My friends have even mentioned how they remember I insisted I was green. No one else could have my color! Even my wedding colors were just green, but Mom talked me into having a little white to help out. Green, green, green. But it has to be the right shades and values of green. Not really dark, not dull green, but pretty green...like green glitter, or new leaves. Is it because my birthstone is Emerald green? I don't know, why but I love green. Maybe that is why I hate to go shopping, I hate to give up the "green" stuff. I don't obsess about recycling so I'm not "that green." But I love green.
Just thought I would write about that!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Can I Come?
Last night I was really contemplating getting in my car and just driving away somewhere. I thought of how long it would take me to get to Salt Lake, Arizona, and Missouri. I just wanted to leave, to run away. Except I didn't want to go alone, but I wanted to be alone. So I went to the school while Dad (Garth) went to his class. It just wasn't what I was looking for, but better than sitting with my own thoughts. I really just wanted to run away from everything and everybody. Do you ever have those times? I am sure everyone does. I was really just sitting and waiting for my crazy brain to kick into that zoned-out stuff I have experienced twice in my life. When I wake up at the hospital because my family has noticed something wrong and I am out of reality. Luckily for me, (or maybe not so lucky)I keep myself in the right stuff for a while. It was just a bad day and today didn't get much better. I will be alright in a few days, hopefully. Allow myself the time I need to get myself out of this slump. At least I hope I can. If not, you might find me on your doorstep.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Thinking of the Past
This week I learned of the passing of life-long friend. I can't remember a time in my life that Colleen wasn't my friend. I remember playing with her when her family lived in the house that Dick and Lynn Huntington live in now. I don't know exactly when the Curtises moved to the home near us, but I know we were younger than third grade. Colleen has always been in my life.
We would walk home from school together, but we always took the "long way" around. We went from the schoolhouse, past Uncle Bruce's store, usually stopping in for a piece of candy. Then to the corner where we would say good-bye to Dixie and Sandra, then on east past my house. The deal was that I would walk with Colleen to the corner between our houses. That way we would each walk 1/2 block by ourselves. In Third grade we had a teacher who taught us to count to 10 and say good-bye in Spanish, so that was our traditional good-bye. Adidos, muchachoes (No, I don't know how to spell Spanish words either!) We would also call each other when it was time to meet up for Mutual (MIA) or whenever we were going anywhere. We were always together. Until we got to high school. Her friends took her another direction from one I chose. We didn't association much after that, but we always knew we had a friend when we needed one.
Colleen called me this past fall. It was late at night and Garth and I were getting ready to watch the news. Colleen said she had been looking through the phone book and saw Garth's name and decided to call and talk with me. We talked through the news and part of the new program. We talked about old times and things we used to do, like play in her brother Wes' tree house, or sit on the canal rails and visit. I kept wondering what her real purpose was in calling me, expecting her to ask for my help someway, but she truly just wanted to visit. It was so nice to talk with her. I am glad I have the chance to say we were friends still. I am glad I could brighten up her life for a few minutes.
This has reinforced to me how important it is to live your life so you don't have any regrets. I know there are some things that I do regret, but I try to keep new regrets to a minimum. I also know that you must let your family know you love them.
I want my children to all know how important they are to me. Just as you all love your sweet little children, you are my sweet babies and I love you just the same as you love them. I cry when I know you are hurting. I want to take those pains away. I want you to cry on my shoulders. I want you to lean on me. I want to be there to help you in any way I can, but still allow you to learn your own lessons by standing up for yourself. I love you all with all my heart, and I know your dad does as well. We pray for you all constantly and want you all to have joy in your lives. Sometimes we have to go through heartaches before the joy can shine through, but we know it will. As long as you are following the gospel teachings you will find joy.
I picked up a book from Wal-mart the other night, not even thinking about what it was. Then I realized it was a book that was written for single sisters in the church. But it has some really good advice for ALL women in the church. And it reminds us that we will most likely all be single in the church sometime in our lives, even if it happens when we are 85 and lose a husband. It was written by the second wife of President Oaks, who was 53 years old before she got married. (How about getting married to a GA?) She has some really good things to say, and in my usual way of reading, I am underlining things that really stick out to me, things that can apply in all our situations. I just might pass it along to anyone who would like it. It will write some of the things that impress me later on.
I just wanted to write about my friend, and how much her life has made me think about my life. I want you all to know that I love you all!
We would walk home from school together, but we always took the "long way" around. We went from the schoolhouse, past Uncle Bruce's store, usually stopping in for a piece of candy. Then to the corner where we would say good-bye to Dixie and Sandra, then on east past my house. The deal was that I would walk with Colleen to the corner between our houses. That way we would each walk 1/2 block by ourselves. In Third grade we had a teacher who taught us to count to 10 and say good-bye in Spanish, so that was our traditional good-bye. Adidos, muchachoes (No, I don't know how to spell Spanish words either!) We would also call each other when it was time to meet up for Mutual (MIA) or whenever we were going anywhere. We were always together. Until we got to high school. Her friends took her another direction from one I chose. We didn't association much after that, but we always knew we had a friend when we needed one.
Colleen called me this past fall. It was late at night and Garth and I were getting ready to watch the news. Colleen said she had been looking through the phone book and saw Garth's name and decided to call and talk with me. We talked through the news and part of the new program. We talked about old times and things we used to do, like play in her brother Wes' tree house, or sit on the canal rails and visit. I kept wondering what her real purpose was in calling me, expecting her to ask for my help someway, but she truly just wanted to visit. It was so nice to talk with her. I am glad I have the chance to say we were friends still. I am glad I could brighten up her life for a few minutes.
This has reinforced to me how important it is to live your life so you don't have any regrets. I know there are some things that I do regret, but I try to keep new regrets to a minimum. I also know that you must let your family know you love them.
I want my children to all know how important they are to me. Just as you all love your sweet little children, you are my sweet babies and I love you just the same as you love them. I cry when I know you are hurting. I want to take those pains away. I want you to cry on my shoulders. I want you to lean on me. I want to be there to help you in any way I can, but still allow you to learn your own lessons by standing up for yourself. I love you all with all my heart, and I know your dad does as well. We pray for you all constantly and want you all to have joy in your lives. Sometimes we have to go through heartaches before the joy can shine through, but we know it will. As long as you are following the gospel teachings you will find joy.
I picked up a book from Wal-mart the other night, not even thinking about what it was. Then I realized it was a book that was written for single sisters in the church. But it has some really good advice for ALL women in the church. And it reminds us that we will most likely all be single in the church sometime in our lives, even if it happens when we are 85 and lose a husband. It was written by the second wife of President Oaks, who was 53 years old before she got married. (How about getting married to a GA?) She has some really good things to say, and in my usual way of reading, I am underlining things that really stick out to me, things that can apply in all our situations. I just might pass it along to anyone who would like it. It will write some of the things that impress me later on.
I just wanted to write about my friend, and how much her life has made me think about my life. I want you all to know that I love you all!