Thursday, March 19, 2009
Can I Come?
Last night I was really contemplating getting in my car and just driving away somewhere. I thought of how long it would take me to get to Salt Lake, Arizona, and Missouri. I just wanted to leave, to run away. Except I didn't want to go alone, but I wanted to be alone. So I went to the school while Dad (Garth) went to his class. It just wasn't what I was looking for, but better than sitting with my own thoughts. I really just wanted to run away from everything and everybody. Do you ever have those times? I am sure everyone does. I was really just sitting and waiting for my crazy brain to kick into that zoned-out stuff I have experienced twice in my life. When I wake up at the hospital because my family has noticed something wrong and I am out of reality. Luckily for me, (or maybe not so lucky)I keep myself in the right stuff for a while. It was just a bad day and today didn't get much better. I will be alright in a few days, hopefully. Allow myself the time I need to get myself out of this slump. At least I hope I can. If not, you might find me on your doorstep.
4 comments:
AWW and what i would give to have you show up on my doorstep. I have been trying to figure out routes to home a million times over. I guess I should have called... drive all you want. the route through flagstaff is the best one...
I hope everything is OK. You are welcome to show up on our door step. I could actually use someone here to help me sleep! If you are looking for sanity, I am not sure I would head this way :)
How well I understand that feeling. I haven't had it for a couple of years and it was before any of the kids were married. So I didn't even have a place to run too. It is funny though, the only person I wanted to tell where I was, was Dad. For some reason I felt that he was the only one who would care. But then life hit me in the face and I knew that if I ran, I would have to come back. It is terrible that we let life get to us like this. I hope that all is well now and that school is getting better for you. I do hate the last couple of months of school. Hang in there and it will be the summer and we will be in heaven enjoying three months of no kids who think they are going to school just to play and teachers are just getting in their way.
mom i know how you feel.. a few weeks ago i felt the same way. i would love if you came up here. it seems like it's been forever since you and dad have been up here and i know it has been forever since i have been down home.
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